humble opinions.

I really need to stop wasting time watching the news and get ready for work. yeaaah.

kthanksbye.

of watching the Tyra show right now, it is intense.

it’s about women physically abusing their boyfriends. it’s so sad. it really reminds me of the book “Love and Respect” by the Eggerichs. Jesse and I have been reading this book on and off and what a fabulous resource it is for married couples. But in the show, the woman reacts and beats the man when he “stonewalls” as the book describes. When men ‘stonewall” of ignore/turn away from/whatever else, the women get mad and react violently….

I know this is random, but I thought I’d share. this couple really needs to read this book.

just sayin’.

husband is on a man date with the boys. my homework/reading is done. (yay go me!) ready for bed, but I can’t yet because husband isn’t here and I can’t sleep alone.

so, why not blog?

tomorrow night I start serving tables on my own, and I am so excited! I’m a little nervous too! I hope I do good and make some moneyy. oh Lord, pray for me! also, tomorrow is friday, thank ya Jesus. got class in the AM, looking forward to that! I’m really happy to be back and actually doing something with my time, haha but really though, I think this semester is going to be fabulous.

I’ve been putting some thoughts in cutting my hair. I want something newww. really bad. I’m thinking of cutting it to about a 1/2 inch on my shoulders…if that makes any sense. but really I want to do it! I think it would be cute, and it is just hair. I also need to get it re-dyed, BAD. please, don’t judge me if you see my roots, ha!

okay, time for deep. where is my heart at? I think know where. 1 peter 3:3-4 has been challenging me. it’s really been asking me to hold what is really important higher than vanity.  “Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.” I don’t know, but I really have this desire in my heart for a ‘gentle and quiet spirit’ that God values. it’s been this constant itch on my heart these past few days. I want to be beautiful inside, and gracious. I have been asking God to develop that more and more in my heart. beauty fades, trends will not last forever. what doesn’t leave is the gentleness and quiet spirit that only He can give. I have a desire to see young girls truly live this out, including myself. I mean think about it, what if we sought out this kind of spirit that is of value to God than seeking to look good for our peers? what would that look like? wow. I really want that to be my main focus, my goal as a young woman. I want to please God rather than please my friends with my outter appearance. I mean, looking cute and whatever isn’t bad, but it is if we spend more time on that rather than developing and asking God for insides that please him. I don’t want to be guilty of that. When we do this, we begin to have a divided heart which the bible clearly says a divided heart is harmful and keeps us from having a pure heart. I want a pure heart. a spirit that is beautiful and draws people to Christ. I want Christ to be the only desire of my heart! Psalm 73 always shows me how selfish I can be, and how there is more blessing in taking joy in having Christ over the things of this world. my heart is longing for this. and it feels so good to know that my Jesus is able to do these things in me if I seek him out!!!!! thank you for your word Lord. thank you for your faithfulness! :D

thank you, thank you <3

I am restless, until I rest in You,

until I rest in You.

just spending my last summer’s eve doing laundry.

so exciting.

I’m looking forward to classes tomorrow, FINALLY something other than sitting around in my apartment.

where is my journal when I need it?

GAHHH.

being married to your best friend and living with em’, and doing everyday life with ‘em is THE BEST.

ohhhh geeez, I am so lucky <3